[ Well, at this point, he is going through the motions of figuring out how to feel still. He is settling on the fact of the matter: He isn't his Deku - at least, he isn't the one that Bakugo right in front of him dated, but he will still always be Izuku in the end.
He starts wondering if that means something... Is it wrong for him to wonder what it was like, when the other version of himself got to spend so much time with Katsuki Bakugo?
What did they get to do together?
Did they get to do everything together he dreamed of when they were kids?
Izuku wants to imagine it, but there's a pain in his heart that tells him no. Tells him... He is undeserving, and that those moments are not for him to think about.
He's thinking.... Instead, Maybe.... Maybe he can help Renuite Bakugo with the other version of himself? The one who has those memories they shared, and the one he apparently fell -
in love with?
Izuku would want that if it was him.
Izuku's face became flushed, and he has to hide his face behind his hands. Trying to peel away the shame that he feels. Not because it disgusts him, but because he can't believe that Bakugo and another version of him were dating. That Bakugo would want someone plain and weak like him. He tries to stop himself from thinking too hard on it, and instead, starts thinking about how to make the impossible seem possible...
How can they reunite the two of them so they can be with each other? ]
He did? That was really nice of him.
I also have plans to work on stuff myself; I want to see what I can discover about other Universes and how to travel into them. Currently, I have plans to do things with Hawks at the Cathedral. Do you want to work together too?
[He doesn't. Honestly? He wants to work by himself and not engage with anyone at all until he sorts through all this nonsense in his head and heart.
These memories have him nauseous at this point.]
Sure. Was thinking about doing some asking around to see if any of the locals know anything. The books around here seem like they have spells on them to keep us figuring them out too. Bet some of them have some useful information in them.
I noticed that, too, the last time I was there. I still want to keep checking, make sure that there isn't a book in there waiting for us to read!
I think talking to some of the people here would be a great idea; I can join you while you do that if you want. It might be best to investigate with partners until we understand more about this place.
[ Normalacy - somewhat. He will grab onto it and learn whatever he can for the sake of Bakugo and the others. ]
I think someone is hiding something. When all the books are like that, it comes across like it was done to make it hard for us to tell what's important and what's not.
I tried to talk to the Librarian myself, but they didn't seem to want to talk much. It was really hard to grab her attention... Maybe there is someone else somewhere who knows more?
Maybe. Can't hurt to do some digging. I might toss up something on that forum for everyone to keep track of what we find. There's more people than just us that got dragged into this.
Happy to hear it, I just was wondering. You know there are some really interesting people here as well. I am excited to hear more about their worlds and about what their abilities are, can you believe they don't know anything about Quirks?
Yeah I have already! Maybe there are things we can learn about their world that we can bring back home in the end? Anyway, you don't want to hear my blab. Sorry about that. Was the rest of your day okay overall?
[ Izuku looks at his phone, attempting to figure out how to word what comes next. he wants to... Show interest in Bakugo, but not sound - weird? His mind thinks back on his conversation with Shoto and how he should delicately handle this situation going forward. ]
If you go on a date again, let me know how it goes?
[ Izuku wants to know if Bakugo can be happy, wants to know if there is some way he can help... ]
[Katsuki has tried so hard to get away from the date conversation. He wishes he hadn't misfired the text. Or hadn't engaged at all with the question it brought.]
Unlikely to happen. Got more important shit to do than go on dates.
[ A while passes, Izuku is laying on his bed looking at the photo of Katsuki in the frog shirt. He decides to finally send a text through his blearily erratic and confused thoughts. ]
Kacchan, what are your thoughts on wanting to focus on happiness while you are trying to be a Hero?
[Katsuki is still awake, well after his usual bedtime. Staring at the ceiling when his phone lights up so he picks it back up to read the text.
Happiness while being a hero, huh?
Right now he's feeling heart broken and jaded and that part of him wants to be cynical and scathing.
He closes his eyes for a few moments instead and lets himself calm his racing thoughts.]
No reason for us to ignore our own needs to be a hero. Being a hero makes me happy.
[Or it did. Back when it was still a challenge. When it was something to really strive for. He's secretly fine with being here. He can make change here. A difference.
The world they know probably won't need guys like him much longer...]
[Does it make him happy? It's the only thing that makes him happy? Izuku has so many more questions that he wants to ask Katsuki. Except they all die before he can even type them out. ]
[Katsuki lays there holding the phone, staring at the last reply.
"Kacchan, sugoi!"
He rolls on his side with the phone in his hand.
There are a million things he wants to say to the man on the other side of the phone. But he doesn't know where to start or if it would make things better or... worse.]
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He starts wondering if that means something... Is it wrong for him to wonder what it was like, when the other version of himself got to spend so much time with Katsuki Bakugo?
What did they get to do together?
Did they get to do everything together he dreamed of when they were kids?
Izuku wants to imagine it, but there's a pain in his heart that tells him no. Tells him... He is undeserving, and that those moments are not for him to think about.
He's thinking.... Instead, Maybe.... Maybe he can help Renuite Bakugo with the other version of himself? The one who has those memories they shared, and the one he apparently fell -
Izuku would want that if it was him.
Izuku's face became flushed, and he has to hide his face behind his hands. Trying to peel away the shame that he feels. Not because it disgusts him, but because he can't believe that Bakugo and another version of him were dating. That Bakugo would want someone plain and weak like him. He tries to stop himself from thinking too hard on it, and instead, starts thinking about how to make the impossible seem possible...
How can they reunite the two of them so they can be with each other? ]
He did? That was really nice of him.
I also have plans to work on stuff myself; I want to see what I can discover about other Universes and how to travel into them. Currently, I have plans to do things with Hawks at the Cathedral. Do you want to work together too?
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These memories have him nauseous at this point.]
Sure.
Was thinking about doing some asking around to see if any of the locals know anything.
The books around here seem like they have spells on them to keep us figuring them out too.
Bet some of them have some useful information in them.
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I think talking to some of the people here would be a great idea; I can join you while you do that if you want. It might be best to investigate with partners until we understand more about this place.
[ Normalacy - somewhat. He will grab onto it and learn whatever he can for the sake of Bakugo and the others. ]
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When all the books are like that, it comes across like it was done to make it hard for us to tell what's important and what's not.
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Can't hurt to do some digging.
I might toss up something on that forum for everyone to keep track of what we find.
There's more people than just us that got dragged into this.
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If it's just us, I'll make a group chat.
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Guess it makes sense there would be worlds that work a lot differently from ours.
Bet you'll be taking notes about it, huh?
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[He didn't want to talk about his day.]
But it's late.
I'm going to bed.
You should too.
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Have a good night. Thanks for chatting with me.
[ Izuku looks at his phone, attempting to figure out how to word what comes next. he wants to... Show interest in Bakugo, but not sound - weird? His mind thinks back on his conversation with Shoto and how he should delicately handle this situation going forward. ]
If you go on a date again, let me know how it goes?
[ Izuku wants to know if Bakugo can be happy, wants to know if there is some way he can help... ]
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Unlikely to happen.
Got more important shit to do than go on dates.
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Kacchan, what are your thoughts on wanting to focus on happiness while you are trying to be a Hero?
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Happiness while being a hero, huh?
Right now he's feeling heart broken and jaded and that part of him wants to be cynical and scathing.
He closes his eyes for a few moments instead and lets himself calm his racing thoughts.]
No reason for us to ignore our own needs to be a hero.
Being a hero makes me happy.
[Or it did. Back when it was still a challenge. When it was something to really strive for. He's secretly fine with being here. He can make change here. A difference.
The world they know probably won't need guys like him much longer...]
But I still make time for other shit too.
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Kacchan you're amazing as always, good night.
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He rolls on his side with the phone in his hand.
There are a million things he wants to say to the man on the other side of the phone. But he doesn't know where to start or if it would make things better or... worse.]
Goodnight.