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Can't give you answers I don't have.
He mistakenly assumes this is still about Todoroki's dating life.
But I at least know about hurting people.
You know your own opinion. You know if you've ever felt something regarding the topic. Not having experience doesn't mean you lose those personal things. Let me start. We're surrounded by beautiful women all the time in our class, strong, capable, loving, but this is the first time I've actually recognized that.
It's your turn now.
Just don't let the question be where he learned it and Bakugo will have a semi-good time.
What the hell does that have to do with being afraid you'll hurt someone?
Feeling tempted by pretty faces?
His turn, what? He never agreed to talk about himself.
Do you have any suggestions, or things you have observed. Those sorts of things are helpful, too. I'd like to hear them if you do.
I told you, I haven't paid any mind to that shit before.
And he is not up for discussing 'what if I'm attracted to my childhood friend' with Todoroki this morning. Not over text, where there will be physical evidence he did so.
Not that he thinks Todoroki would go telling anyone. At least not maliciously. But...
Look, he isn't ready to open this overpacked can of worms yet.
If you want to talk about how not to completely fuck up a connection to someone, I can do that.
Otherwise I dunno what you're fishing for here?
Sorry, I just don't think I'm good at conversations like this. I know I initiated it, before you say it. Please tell me how to not completely fuck up a connection to someone. That is more than helpful and something I do not want to do. I like him.
Imagine liking the guy you're dating.
Texting this is stupid.
Are you home?
There's something I've always wanted to say but I've always been too afraid to say it. Maybe it'll be easier to write it out. Someone told me that the ocean has a way of helping with that. So, here I am.
I've always wondered how I got myself here. How I feel about him. How I let it get so bad. I thought for a long time that I would be able to just bury those feelings deep down inside until they became just a murmur that I could ignore.
But I don't know. Lately. It's felt like that murmur is getting louder again. I don't like it. But I also like it. I don't know what to do.
I just want to stay where he is. I don't want to ruin what we've fixed. If I say anything I'll ruin everything. And I don’t want to go back to him hating me.
That's all. I don't know what I'm doing. Thanks for listening, Ocean.
Something about it begs a reply. He can't explain it. Maybe it's because those feelings hit home. Burying feelings deep and being afraid of what letting them out means.
He knows that the odds of a reply finding the writer are slim to none, but he does it anyway.]
Know you were probably just writing it out to get it out, but I found your letter and it seemed like you needed some advice. So here it is.
If he would hate you just for wanting to be near him, he doesn't deserve the time and energy. I'm saying it from the other side of a situation. I hated someone who didn't do anything wrong. And now it's on me to do the legwork to fix it and show them I can be worth the faith they put in me.
If I fuck it up, it's on me. And if this guy you're writing about fucks it up, it's on him.
[He doesn't sign it or even end it properly. He just... leaves it at that. And back into the ocean it goes.]
I have talked to Midoriya. Are you dating him without him knowing it? Please message me back as soon as you can. Thank you.
I don't know what mental math you're doing over there, Icy-Hot, but stop it.
We're not dating.
How the hell did you get here from me asking about people giving him chocolate?
What the hell are you talking to him about?
Oh no. He doesn't like this. He doesn't like this at all.
You better not fucking ask him that too.
Oh. Did you want to ask him instead?
Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit. Shit.
This is what he gets for thinking he could talk to Todoroki. He never should have let his curiosity win.
I don't know what the hell you're talking about.
I said I'd help you and I'd take the extra chocolate.
Nothing in that was a fucking lie.
He just didn't disclose what he'd do with the 'extra'...
No I don't want to ask him.
You never answered my question, damn you.
Did you at least find out who gave him chocolate??
He's already screwed. Just give him his answers.
Besides me.
He's... not going to even pretend at this point. Todoroki knows. Katsuki has been perceived and he hates it thanks.
Oh. Maybe... maybe he's the one mathing wrong. Maybe he needs to recalculate.
......
Guess I just misunderstood some shit.
Don't worry about it.
From here out I'll handle it.
No he doesn't.
Can I suggest something that might be out of place, may make you actually angry at me or risk you being upset? With all that in mind I'd still like your permission.
Just say it.
He almost says 'spit it out'. But... he's learning to mind his words with Todoroki.
I'm not sure how to put this, please forgive me. I'm going to try to re-start that statement without the '...' as I intended it to bring pause but I'm not sure I have the right words.
I'll use: Someone who fills in the blanks in myself and understands why the gaps are there.
If you feel like you've found that, and you are afraid, I was too and had I listened to that fear I never would've known what this kind of happiness was like.
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